Sleep, Precious Sleep

One happy side effect of motherhood has been that caffeine no longer affects my sleep.

Diet Coke with dinner?  SURE!!  NO problem.  When I finally get to bed, I get right to sleep. 

This summer I found my natural rhythm: fall asleep around midnight and wake up between 6:30 and 8, depending on how gracious Adam was that particular morning.

Now that school has started, I head to bed between 9:30 and 11 and the alarm rings between 5 and 5:45 depending on what my morning holds. 

Still 7-8 hours, definitely not the SAME 7-8 hours.

I don’t know why it makes such a difference.  I slide, slither, mope my way out of bed these days to the shower.  I took one look at my face this morning and the extreme puffiness of my eyes made me wonder if I had spent the night crying or drinking or both and simply forgot about the fun or the pain.  Whichever.

So while I still fall asleep – light has become a big issue for me.  It has to be dark.  Dark, dark, dark. 

Two nights ago, I laid down and realized that the itty bitty NIGHT LIGHT across the hall in Ismael’s bathroom was goingto be an issue.  It was shining its itty bitty 2 watt heart out right into my eyes.

I shut the bedroom door enough to block it but still able to hear Adam and threw myself down on the bed. 

My thought stream went something like this:

WOW it’s dark.  Really dark.

And quiet.  What happened to the fan? 

Umm uh oh.  The alarm clock is off too. 

OH MY GOD, IPL.  I PROMISE I PAID THE BILL TODAY. I’M SORRY IT WAS LATE.  I SWEAR I WILL NEVER DO IT AGAIN. ok yes i will but we can’t help it.

Waaaaait…a…minute… They don’t shut power off at 10 pm.

(find glasses, use cell phone light as a lamp)

Where is a candle?  A lighter?  I had one from the retreat today.  In my pocket.  In the white pants Adam threw up on immediately upon seeing me and now they are in the washer.  Did I wash the lighter too?  Probably.

Crap. I can’t see.

(I find a candle. call Ismael, call the power company, call Ismael again and finally settle down to sleep)

How will I sleep with no air conditioning? No fan?  Waaah.   (repeat a million times for 30 minutes when the power came back on and the fan roared to life)

Ahh….. the fan.  I love my fan.  I can go to sleep.

Crap. Ismael’s night light is in my eyes.

(some people are just never satisfied.)

The end.

About halalamama

I am a new mother to a beautiful baby boy. My husband and I walk each day, still learning about each other, and navigating the beauty of parenting in an American - African, Catholic - Muslim marriage.
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3 Responses to Sleep, Precious Sleep

  1. Courtney says:

    I hate when my schedule changes as it always takes so long to get use to. Glad the electric came back on.

  2. Beth Brown says:

    Girl, I can drink a diet coke and set it on the nightstand, turn off the light and go to sleep! Caffeine has no effect unfortunately!

  3. Sometimes I wonder if it’s a matter of waking up and being woken up. I do much better when I wake up on my own as opposed to an alarm clock going off and waking me up.

    Either way, I hate alarm clocks.